Its amazing how much we can become unsatisfied with where we are. Unsatisfied with money, (or the lack there of) salary, friends, success, or even our faith. My biggest struggle is probably with the money area. I don't know why, but I tend to directly relate my value to how much money i have in the bank, and how much the company I work for pays me.
This flaw can very easily be frustrating in any scenario, with any job. But can be extremely tough in a ministry role and while working at a church.
I was recently given the opportunity to lead an area in ministry at EastLake, and not even 3 weeks in, I am doubting if the amount of work being put in, is worth it. (According to my value) Here are a few things I have learned.
God values me. - Even if I feel no value in what I do or where I work, God walues what I am doing for His kingdom.
Family values me. - It really doesn't matter how much I do or don't make. My wife love me no matter what.
Friends value me. - Now this isn't always the case, but if the amount of money you make or the success you have is the main factor for the friends you have. Get new friends, they all like me whether I am broke or not.
What other areas do I need to grow in?
I know that in money it affects me, but this also hits me with my spiritual growth. I can attempt to force growth in my walk, but there is a reason why Elders have there name, because they have lived it out, and learned along the way. I cant cram all of the knowledge they have into my 20 year old brain. It wouldn't work. So I really just need to slow down and get better at pacing myself in my growth.
Bottom Line:
I have realized that all of my needs will be taken care of, no matter what.
The only catch is: It's not on my time, it's God's.
